UGH!!! Summer SUCKS!!! And my current situation doesnt make it any better. Why is it soo hard for me to just fully move on?? Yeah we're "friends" I guess, but I dont have the overwhelming desire to communicate with my friends every effin day!!! GOD, I annoy myself! Moving on has never been this hard....EVER. Hell, I've moved on during the relationship before, so why, why, why, WHY, is it soo muffuccin (yea, muffuccin) hard now? I just need the summer to go by hella slow, because the longer it is, the easier it will be for me to un-discomboulate my emotions.
I feel weak. Not SWV type 'weak in the knees.' Oh no, weak as in not as strong as I should be. If someone else came to me in the same situation im in right now I would tell them to suck it up and move on, so why the hell can I not take my own advice? I still dont know why he fucks with my emotions soo much. I have yet to realize what has made him soo special to me that I routinely sacrifice my pride and damn near my sanity over him.
And the real funny thing about this whole thing is, I dont want him back. Okay, scratch that, I dont know what I want. But, by saying that, wouldnt that mean I dont? Whatever, playing relationship councelor to myself is too hard.
I just want to let him go and regain the miniscule amount of sanity that I had before all this.
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