It's almost a sickness...

So...the universe works in some mysterious ass ways. I say that because I just ran across a website that supports my Kid Cudi habit, other than his twitter, youtube and blog. It is http://datnewcudi.com , and I just literally found it 5 seconds ago, instantly fell in love (I mean, come on, who would think that I wouldnt?) and had to blog about it.

In addition to that, True Blood is now my favorite effin television show...ever. The episode that just came on tonight has the entire series kickin Scooby Doo off that #1 spot as my favorite thing to watch. Im even starting to like Sookie Stackhouse again!!! So yeah, sorry Scooby and Mystery Inc, but the residents of Bon Temps have real monsters that kick ass, not losers in masks trying to steal treasure!!

TWITTER!!!

Oh, and by the way, I have a twitter now. Why? Couldnt tell ya!

http://www.twitter.com/Viva_laBrandi

LOVES IT!!!!

Okay, so I finally got up off my ass and downloaded Kid Cudi's mixtape in it's entirety, and OM-effin-G!!! It's musical genius!! After my musical revelation, I found his twitter and his blog (okay, more like I searched and stalked, but hey, who's looking at the adjectives???) He just seems so effin real, and I LOVE IT!!! Now I understand my friend's obsession with the dude (speaking of which, he should probably watch his back for any hippies...). I mean, yeah, he is wonderful to look at, I've known that for a number of months, but now theres so much depth there, and its incredibly sexy. Makes me wanna age 8 years in 8 hours just so I can do "bad" things to him lol.
(oh, and the profile song was added before the downloading of the mixtape.....well, a few minutes before!)

(no, seriously, look at that!!!!)

FML!!!

So yeah....Im stuck in the house for the next few days. "Why?" Might you ask? Because I, being the wonderfully coordinated person that I am, freakin sprained two of my toes, and this hurts like a biatch!!! GRR!!! I wanna go somewhere and take some darn pictures of myself. (yeah, I said it!)

I NEED A JOB!!!

Seriously, im broke and in dire need of a few things (a new iPod for instance) so I need a effin job!! And with the economy the way it is, all the jobs that I would be qualified for are all filled by people who lost their office jobs....DAMMIT!! So seriously, If you out there in the interwebz can give me a job that involves keeping my clothes on, I will surely take it!!

...all I can do is just breathe in, breathe out...

UGH!!! Summer SUCKS!!! And my current situation doesnt make it any better. Why is it soo hard for me to just fully move on?? Yeah we're "friends" I guess, but I dont have the overwhelming desire to communicate with my friends every effin day!!! GOD, I annoy myself! Moving on has never been this hard....EVER. Hell, I've moved on during the relationship before, so why, why, why, WHY, is it soo muffuccin (yea, muffuccin) hard now? I just need the summer to go by hella slow, because the longer it is, the easier it will be for me to un-discomboulate my emotions.

I feel weak. Not SWV type 'weak in the knees.' Oh no, weak as in not as strong as I should be. If someone else came to me in the same situation im in right now I would tell them to suck it up and move on, so why the hell can I not take my own advice? I still dont know why he fucks with my emotions soo much. I have yet to realize what has made him soo special to me that I routinely sacrifice my pride and damn near my sanity over him.

And the real funny thing about this whole thing is, I dont want him back. Okay, scratch that, I dont know what I want. But, by saying that, wouldnt that mean I dont? Whatever, playing relationship councelor to myself is too hard.

I just want to let him go and regain the miniscule amount of sanity that I had before all this.

......sadness

so yeah, havent been here in a while, but hey, it's time for me to vent:

so, im officially single...again. It's not like I have a problem with singledom, but it just hurts sooo bad. I dont even know the real reason why we broke up, it just went down that way.